Rape Support Group

If you or someone you know has been the victim of rape, this is the place to find support and get advice. If you want, discuss your experience, share your feelings, and meet others going through a similar situation.

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I have been feeling so bad today. I was trying to cry, but the tears wouldnt come. I was having flashbacks, and remembering the noise of when my rapist fingered me and the noise it made. And i remember, his ugly face smiling whilst he was doing it to me. He looked so happy, like he was enjoying it, and all i wanted was for it to stop. I feel so dirty, he was licking my breasts, gosh his face, it traumatises me, i want to cry, he is a pervert, a rapist, I HATE YOU JAMES,
Shai
Shai
i'm here if you ever need to talk...i hate the flashbacks and the memories. they haunt me almost every day... =/

keep your chin up. i'm here for you...
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have you ever tried an outlet when you feel like that? I never had until I was hospitalized in the psych ward at the U of U hospital - I usually kept all those feelings inside.

Finally my doctor had me draw when I was feeling that rush of emotions - the result was abstract and amazing - not really beautiful not really ugly but beautifully broken -

I'm here for you and I know how consuming that rush of hatred can be.
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It sounds like PTDS flash backs. WhitW is right I think, try and find a way to get it all out that doesn't hurt you like painting or you could talk it out, we will listen. You are not alone. You didn't do anything wrong to make all this hurt inside you.
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I get flashbacks too. I still don't remember 2 of my rapes. I was drunk for one, and drugged for another one. When I get flashbacks, I need to take a deep breath. That's all I can do....
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