If you or someone you know has been the victim of rape, this is the place to find support and get advice. If you want, discuss your experience, share your feelings, and meet others going through a similar situation.
I was raped when I was 12 at gunpoint by a stranger. I never told my family until I was 20 when I was pregnant with my daughter. I have been to many counselors since then but mostly I healed through remaining optimistic and hopeful. I am now about to be 31 and find myself at a place I tried to run from. I have been sexually promiscuous ever since I was raped. I have had sexual thoughts since I was 5 or 6 and sometimes I don't know if it's that or being raped on why I am so sexually promiscuous. Most of the men I encounter I have sex with right away as if I can't control it until they figure how easy I am. I'm at a point where I have no job, no creativity and very lonely and I just can't help to blame myself why I didn't get help when it first occurred. I contemplate suicide but I know I can never do it because I have a 10 year old daughter I would hate to leave like that but I'm rapidly losing my faith and don't know what to do. I have read the stories and feel so bad because I have heard girls being raped numerous times and I feel I need to be strong and get over it. It's just hard to go in a world and feel like you have no one to trust and to understand you. I dread the day going back to a job I hate or having sex with one more person that doesn't value me. I just can't wait to be happy again and it feels so far.