+ hi my name is shelly i'm dont know if this is the right place to come for advice but if anyone can help please do i am feeling trapped. Thursday just gone i was at a house party at a friends i went to bed as i had to be up early and i was not feeling to good. all i know is that when i got in to bed on the night on my own i had clothes on but when i got up i was unclothed. i know i had not done anything with anyone because i was not drunk i had a couple, but not a lot at all. any way i got up panicked and left i went to the hospital and asked if they could check me for any drug in my system and to see if i had been raped they told me that i would have to go to the police because of evidence. i then went straight there. Then i asked if they could test me for any drug and or signs that i had been raped. dont get me wrong the police were very good in that way of doing all the test and told that i could do the video interviwe today.when today came the polis came to mine telling me that they could not do the interviwe today and asked when i could make it i told them monday next as i wonted to go to my moms. then told me what normally happens next and asked me some more questions. then they told me that the only choises i had was i could drop the case or to make the accusation offical but the thing is its going to take 6 to 8 weeks before i get the tests back and they say they can not wait for them. how can i say that something has happend if i dont know and what if theres not anuff eveidenc to get some one for it everyone will know me as the girl that cryed rape and the person that did strip and or what ever else to me will get away with it. i am scared and my haed is in a mess thing is i never went to the police and said i was raped i asked if they could tell me. i wont to know whats happend to me before i do anything else. i feel like i am being pushed in to this or to leave it with out knowing what has happend i just cart belive thats the only tow choises i get its not fair i have had no controll in what happend to me now i have got tow rotes i can take none of wich i wont to do.
theres got to be another way please anyone if you know anything that might help in any way or i just dont know what i'm going to do i feel so trapped.

that was from over the week end i had to make a destion by last night.
i chooses to walk away because i feet to scared and had no other choise now i woll never know and i'm so angery that i will never know i'm at the point off braking.
i am going to try and some how fined away off getting a new way for rape victims some where you can go thats just for rape victims to get tested for dugs and rape that has the aquiptment there in the same billeding so the waiting pireord is sorter and so that you could fined out what has happend to you berof having to say something that you iver dont kwon or might not have anough everdance for. i think what you/i/we have been thought is anough to deal with first before you have to deal with the poilce, cort, facing the man that has done this and people talking.
if you have the report back first you can decied what you what to do with it, you might feel that there is not anough to go on but at lest that would be your choice and you would have more ider of whats happend to you .
i dont know how i'm going to do this yet but if its the only thing i do in my life i will. i serpose i'm telling you so if anyone can help with inofmation or wonts to know how i'm getting on then then you can.
to all of you that feel its just not fair love michelle anee kemp.