If you or someone you know has been the victim of rape, this is the place to find support and get advice. If you want, discuss your experience, share your feelings, and meet others going through a similar situation.
I'm sorry its been so long since I've been on here. Thanks to all of you who sent me messages of concern and hugs. It was really nice to know I was missed on here. The truth is I've been having a really hard time lately. My medication has stopped working. I've stopped sleeping, my anxiety is unbearable and my depression is so bad that I'm barely leaving bed. I'm falling behind in my classes which stinks because I have a 4.0 and if my rapist steals that from me too it just wont be right! I have shied away from my friends and am just kind of staying at home getting love from my puppy. This week has been a little better. I started going back to church and that has been good. (You'll notice if you see some of my responses to other posts) I dyed my hair today which always seems cathartic especially when I get to look like someone other than the girl who was raped. I feel like that is becoming my identity. Everything I do is revolved around the rape and my emotions because of it. I wouldn't be on an anti-depressant if it weren't for the rape. I wouldn't be this depressed or be an insomniac again. I wouldn't be having trouble in school or relapsing in my eating disorder...its like everything I do revolves around the rape. I hate that "I was raped" is my identity! I don't want it to be. How do I redefine myself?