I was taken advantage of by someone I thought was my best friend. I had no real support at the time, I grew up in an emotionally abusive household, and told no one. I went through a phase of not caring about myself and risk taking, but eventually I pulled myself together. I decided to go back to school last year and things were going great, but in the winter I became really depressed (depression has always been an issue with me, but this one was probably the worst) and suddenly after a couple years of trying to forget about it, it started bothering me again. I eventually sought help and started seeing a councelor. this was the first time I told anyone about it. We took our time getting to the actual attack issue, she said she wanted to make sure I felt safe with her first. I finally described the whole event in detail for the first time ever last week and since then its like it just happened all over again. all the pain and fear is fresh. my friends dont know what is going on, they are just seeing me as flaky and unreliable because I keep canceling on them. I feel like I am letting everyone down and feel silly for feeling this upset when it happened 2 years ago. I just want to know if anyone else has experienced this or has any advice on how to go about being normal again?
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