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fOR those of u that read my last post..."had a fun night"...
He is that kinda guy. We went out again saturday night ... and around three after staying at a bar for an hour that doesnt except credit card...i still wanted to drink. I went back to wills by myself.
he kept fondling me... I would block myself and tell him not to.. but will is so nice... i didnt want to yell or leave. I just wanted him to respect my wishes...I have a bf. ok long story short... I made a mistake. I feel so stupid...all my strength of being able to take care of myself if i had to was gone. I was so convinced that if i got mad enough and tried really hard it would be impossible for a man to rape me again... im sorry guys i know thats dumb... but i lived with that belief and innerstrength for soo long. Well he didnt penetrate me ... but he uncovered me and pinned me down (on top of me) ... he was a wrestler in hs. There was no winning. because he did that..i told him that I trust him and that I wanna really test if I could manipulate my body so i wouldnt be pinned. He (wanting to have sex with me all night)... said that he would try. so we actually fought eachother... I still lost. he would get my legs on his shoulders...i was stuck...and wide open for what ever he wants.. thank god.. he didnt take the game to that level. I was completely unclothed... and his penis there at my opening... I have never felt so low. I realized right then...that i HAVE NO CONTROL