Rape Support Group
If you or someone you know has been the victim of rape, this is the place to find support and get advice. If you want, discuss your experience, share your feelings, and meet others going through a similar situation.
i keep having a thought of using bleach to was with so i can feel clean i want to wash the dirt and filth that is in me away i want to feel clean and new i want my skin to feel new what is wrong with me why do i have these thoughts i dont know what to do anymore and what scares me is that i have worse thoughts then this
realitychick
Ok do not wash with bleach it burns alot. Have you seen any one about this a doctor mybe they can help. But you are not alone I have felt that away and all I could do about it was just try to forget what was making me feel so bad
deleted_user
yes i told my doc but haven't gotten back to me yeti see him tomorrow so he should help me i haven't slept in along time so im very tired and confused i hope to feel better soon
deleted_user
It is ok to have the thoughts but don't act on them. In my opinion feeling dirty and like you are never going to be clean again is a normal reaction. You are not to blame and you are not dirty inside or out. You are a very special woman and you deserve to love yourself even though it might feel imposable.
deleted_user
your doctor will be able to help. I felt the same way and at times would scrub my skin raw in the shower. I can relate to have "worse" thoughts. I think you could use some counciling. I went inpatient after my rape for fear I would hurt myself. It helped alot.This is a very normal reaction and it will get better with time...I promise. It is ok to think these things but just do not act on them. You are not dirty, you are a beautiful person who someone terrorized. you are stronger than that person and you will get through this. One day at a time.
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I have been here before, a long long time ago and now I am back.Forgive me for not just saying what I want to say,even under a triple dose of antidepressants it is still raw and seeping and I am hesitant at revealing it as at least under the bandages around my heart I don,t have to look at how raw and wounded.My child was cleaved from my heart by his own actions. my child of ten,turning eleven...
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
