If you or someone you know has been the victim of rape, this is the place to find support and get advice. If you want, discuss your experience, share your feelings, and meet others going through a similar situation.
I feel like everyday is the same. Everyday I have the same thought going through my mind. The thought that permeates my mind is rape. I wish I could die so that I would not have to deal with it any more. I need someone to talk to about all of this, but I can not find the words to say to make someone understand. My grandfather died on April 29th of this year. After he died, I started having the most horid flash backs ever. He did things to me that I do not even know how to put into words. Things that are so disgustingly graphic I dont think I want to put it into words.
Of all of these people that God put on earth, you would have thought that he would have put one person here to help me. You thought wrong. I just want to be heard. i just want to be believed. Is that too much to ask? I remember when I told my grandmother about my brother abusing me. She laughed in my face.
Even if there was someone that I could talk to face to face I would be afraid to. I do not see how someone taking away a little girls innocence is funny. I wish i could find someone on this site that would help give me the courage to talk to someone about my past. I have so much anger built up inside of me and I fear if i dont get help, then I will end up hurting someone or myself.
I wouldnt bother anyone with my problems unless I needed it, but I am scared. I think it would be easier to accept rejection behind a computer screen then be rejected to my face again. I dont think i could take that anymore.