i don't really know the answer to that one but know i have lost all little self esteem and confidence i had. i wont go out anywhere by myself and cant even go for a night out cos i panick.... to be honest my life completely sucks now and can't enjoy it.. I lookign to move house to a different town and once i have done that hope my fear and anxiety will subside but who know... i feel my life is of no existance at mo. and i probably percieve myself as weak, scared and don't really like myself also have a lot of anger towards myself too.... hope this helps

As far as the rape altering my perception of myself, I guess I see myself as more self-sufficient now than I was before it happened. It could be the circumstances under which it took place, but I've learned that the only person I can always rely on is myself.

While that can seem like a good thing, it's actually led me to be very angry with everyone. I grew up thinking that people could depend on one another only to find out that it wasn't true.

Also, I perceive myself as tainted or damaged goods. It's hard for me to wrap my mind around the idea that someone will ever want me.

i feel i have lost everything about me i don't wear anything that makes me look nice i don't wear makeup i don't go places to often and i have no friends were i live i don't go to church any more and i feel like a bad wife cas i hate sex i dont feel safe with my on judgment and i don't think i can ever feel like a hole woman ever again .I know this sounds harsh but im dealing with the ptsd right now and i hate it it has stolen me from my family

MY RAPE CHANGED ME IN A WAY THAT AT THIS TIME ANYWAY OF BEING MORE CAREFUL WITH MEN WHO WANT A RELATIONSHIP BUT CAREFUL WITH BEING AROUND MEN IN GENERAL.I HOPE THIS HELPS ANSWER THE QUESTION.

I'm much more self-protective now and probably always will be.
Getting into counselling has been a huge help in the past; in an ironic sort of way that's also helped improve my life and encouraged me to be a more creative person, which might never have happened if I hadn't been raped in the first place. So while I'd never say it's been a good thing, I suppose there is a sort of silver lining to it. Just wish it could have happened in a less painful way!

I can honestly say that my rape changed how I percieve myself in a good way. Yes, I was not as strong as he was but I fought ith all that i had and when it was over I fought with the justice system with all that I had too. I fought to live again and to not let him control every aspect of my life by letting it rule everything I did. I fought for my family and relationship with my husband and I and am amazed at how strong I was and still am. I percieve myself as a survivor...in every sense of the word and that makes me feel good about myself and proud of myself. I still have my bad days but all in all I am a better person to me now.

Its really changed the way I see myself. Its been really hard. I feel like less of a person. I feel like I've lost part of myself. I feel empty. I am terrified of the idea of being intimate with a man. I guess all in all right now I still see myself as broken.

How did the rape change me.. Oh my God.. I had no fear ever in active addiction and sober.. No one could hurt me unless I let them in... well NOW I wont let anyone in.. And I am always looking over my shoulder Paranoid Behavior and fear...

the way i percieve my self is ever changing. some days i perceive myself as so strong for surviving my abusive relationship, and other days i see myself as worthless, angry, tainted, pessimistic, and very insecure...
i think it is good to think about how you see yourself, and then to think about how you want to see yourself in the future. it gives you some goals to strive towards.

I"m alot more wary now of others and my surroundings. Protective of myself. I've realized that there is power in my sexuality as well. And I could use that power to my advantage if I wanted to, maybe not a good thing I know. But it seems like alot of men are controled by their d--ks and I am a sex object to them, so instead of them overpowering me, I feel I have the power now. I don't know if that came out right.

Yea, I too go back and forth feeling that the only way to fet love is through my sexuality. That I'm not worth more than just a sex object to men. Then other times, I know that it's not true, that it wasn't my fault, not all men are like that etc. I'm always trying to get love for me and not my body, but then I always seem to be the one getting sexually flirtatious first thinking that's how to get their attention. I don't know, it's f-ked up.

it changed me in i hated myself for allowing it to happen even tho i had no control at all, i have to act as if alot,act as if i am okay, act as if it never happened, act as if......kinda living a false life

I have lost who I am! It sounds weird, but I hate myself for letting it get to me so bad, I used to think I was a strong person, but now, i just don't know!! Gloomy I know....

Well I was raped aug 28th of this year, for along time I wouldnt go out in public, didnt go outside unless it was night time, I deffinatly didnt want men around me at all. I couldnt sleep, had flashbacks and nightmares. All windows had to be lock and curtains closed,If i had to go to the store, I wouldnt and still wont go by myself, I wont walk through the store by myself, someone has to be right there. Me being raped, its given me more fear to look forward too, I have a much better perception on men, if i dont know you, dont come near me. My life is now full of fear and wondering is he gonna back for me, am i still safe will the justice be served, probably not. I have lost alot of self esteem, I look down on my self and tell mysef it was all my fault i shouldnt have gone back to him. I also have a hard time trusting anyone, more so men. If i have to ride to the corner store with a guy i know, i sit right up against the door, watching from the corner of my eye, thats with men i have know for a long long time even though i know they wont hurt me, its still in the back of my mind. But i still have issues with public and sometimes sleeping at night, its hard to get over and get through.