for the past few nights i have been having terrible ngihtmares of my attacker just showing up everywhere i am, at my house, in the back seat of my car,at the movies, and there is nothing i can do. i feel like i want to scream or tell someone or my bf so he will make him leave but its like he knows i cant say anything and just sits there smiling this evil smile at me. its getting so bad that i even thought i saw him driving behind me the other day and almost has a panick attack. more and more things are starting to remind me of him and its making me sick, it feels like im going backwards and its just getting worse not better... idk what to do... its to a point of where i dont feel comfortable unless my bf is there with me, when he had to leave this morning i just started crying, the littelest things have been making me cry lately... and now im so scared and upset cuz my bf is leaving in 14 days for a month for training then he comes back for 2 days and leaves for another month, i wont get to see him at all and talking will be limited. i usually lean on my best friend Kassie for support in times like these but she is moving to colorado the same day he is leaving, i am going to be so alone, they are the only 2 i can talk to about my issues and they are both leaving at the same time, its too much for me to handel... what do i do... how do i handel losing both of my support systems at the same time?
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