I was raped last night, by a friend, in my own house. I already went to the doctor and had that feeling...that feeling of being a victim. I mean, I'm 27 years old and this stuff shouldn't happen. The worst part is he is married to one of my friends. I can't tell my other friends because I feel like they would blame me or not believe me. i don't want to break up a family by telling anyone...I'm pretty sure he doesn't even think he raped me because I was out drinking with a big group of friends and even though I said I didn't want to do anything over and over again, i eventually just stopped and tried to fall asleep. Then, this morning, he says to me how hot it was last night and I just wanted to die. The guilt I feel cannot be explained. It's numbing. When will it stop? How do I go on not feeling like I'm damaged?
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