Last night I had a nightmare. But it was worse then a night mare. It was a flashback in a nightmare... I felt the pain and agony of the rape, all like it was happening. I was so scared, because unlike the other flashbacks, this one happened in a dream, in a totally different setting. It wasn't the same as it happened before, I was in my room at University and the guy came in. First it was one of the guys I know on campus and he is the sweetest guy ever. He came and kissed me and then proceeded to go farther, but when I said no and wrestled him off of me, he left. But then Nick came and forced himself on me. He put a pillow on my head to muffle my screams as he forced his way into me. I was crying and screaming, the pain ripping through me. But no one came. He left me after a while, and I was shaking. Then I woke up and it was only an hour after I had fallen asleep. At first I thought the dream had been real because of the pain coursing through me and my sweaty crying shaking body. But as I calmed down I realized it was only a dream. Apparently I had been crying and screaming in my sleep and my roommate was worried about me. I was so scared and it took forever to fall asleep again. I'm still really shaken up from it. I hope I don't have anymore like that. I'm so scared that it's actually going to happen.
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