I have always had a fear of Doctors to a degree anyway but my last experience set me off. I guess it was what everybody refers to as a trigger...a huge one. I saw a new male doctor and without realizing how this would effect me, allowed him to examine me.IT was very humiliating and I immedieatly felt raped all over again. I rarely get those kinds of exam and when I do it had always been from a female. I have been told that that exam was very unnecessary for the problem and may have been sexual harassment at the least. I have had serious reactions since two days ago when it happened. I don't feel safe in my own home. I dont feel safe enough to undress to shower. I feel SO violated. I think part of it was because the assisting nurse was very condecending. It was my first and last visit there. How do I get past this feeling? My date rape was 14 years ago and I am apparently still not over it. Please help me.
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