I keep thinking to forgive myself today is a new day right?! Last night I went out and had a few beers...okay a lot. A man came up and started chatting with me. I would of never even let the guy sit next to me if I had been sober...but I wasn't. I live in this complete fantacy world..when I'm sober...in my dreams of great men and relationships. When I'm drunk that is the only time I can get close talk, touch, whatever. Its wrong...but I don't know how to change...I just want something "NORMAL"...but I can't do it without the alcohol. If you have any insight on this please.....I'm all ears.
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