I was raped and beaten 10 years ago at the age of 15 from a boyfriend. But kept it to myself from everyone except the people that looked after me. I bottled everything up and ignored everything. I ended up rebelling and going to drinking and keeping myself busy non stop to get myself through it.. So I got married almost 3 years ago and I have had 2 children since. I had a run in with the guy who did that to me a couple of month ago and he hit me and threatened to do it again. He came looking for me a week later but the police got him before he got to me. So everything I have bottled up has all come out in a huge rush. I just lost my marriage last weekend over it. I have started counselling but hasn't helped yet. My ex husand has now realised what is going on and is supporting me in everyway possible but we are working on getting me better before we work on us. I don't ever get to sleep without dreaming about it with a falshback. It's just like reliving it everynight. I feel the pain, the torture, the feelings and everything just like it's happening all over again. With my husband not here anymore no one is here to wake me up. It's really getting to me and I'm so scared to go to sleep but I'm so exhusted. Does anyone else get this?
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