I've started making drawing of the rapes. stick figures. me, my father, the bed, his, y'know, coming out of him and into me. they're very explicit. and have the talent of a kindergardener (I was about 5 when he started raping me, about 12 when it stopped and I'm 17 now). i don't know why i started doing it. they're all in my journal of blank pages (not lined). i use a pink pen for me and a black one for him. i don't know why i started doing this. and then there are pictures of me now, where I'm a fat figure with a sign around my neck that has words like "disposable fat whore" and i have a pink shadow surrounded by words and sentences, things like "you deserve it" "it's because he loves you" "don't tell mom". I don't know why I randomly started doing these drawings. I showed them to my therapist. He didn't really say anything. I don't really know what to think. Any ideas?
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