yes, i know exactly how you feel, even tho its been over a year now i feel dirty when i wash, at first i got in a bath of (watered down) bleach trying to get clean but that diddnt help and hurt my skin, im slowly getting a bit better but before i was showering/bathing loads of times during the day, im better now i bath less and feel cleaner but therse a little part of me that still feels tainted by him, i sometimes think i smell him on my skin, its gross and freaks me out, i get nightmares about being able to see his fingerprints on me and i cut off my skin but they are still there, you have to be strong hun, best of luck and if you need a chat msg me xXx

yes, i feel that way too. i stay hours in the shower. trying to get him of me but it's as if he is still there. when people at school touch me, even my friends, i get awful flashbacks and i shield away. contact is too vivid a memory. i don't know if it gets better but i hope it does.good luck.