I just need to clear my mind, I do NOT need any comments, I do NOT need to know how stupid my actions were. I just feel better getting things off my mind sometimes. I promised myself that I would never cut never not in a million years. I always screamed at my friends when ever I saw scratches on their wrists/arms covered by foundation. The thought of doing it myself had NEVER crossed my mind until tonight. Now I have 5 gashes in my leg and 4 on my arm. Please do not lecture me. Please. I know this isn't the right support group for this, otherwise I would post it there or in my journal or in depression the problem is I have a really close friend in depression and self harm, and I know that he check my journals so I really don't want him finding out cause it would just be a really big mess that I just could not handle at the moment. I think the reason I did it, is just because everything hit me all at once, a panic attack, a flashback, thought I didn't want, some memories I wish I could forget, and the all the stress floating around recently.
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