If you or someone you know has been the victim of rape, this is the place to find support and get advice. If you want, discuss your experience, share your feelings, and meet others going through a similar situation.
This is hard, I have never publicly told anyone, and it took me 13 years to finally tell my husband and my mother. When I was 16 years old I was sexually active, my boyfriend at the time, let's call him John, was in to trying new things! One night I went over to hang out with him and his friends, he insisted that we go play man hunt ( a form of hide and seek), well when everyone left the house he locked the door behind him. He through me on the bed and proceeded to rope my hands together and my feet apart, when I started to resist he then put a pillow over my head so no one could hear me scream, he then sodomized me, someone heard and came to the window, he told them we were playing around, and told him to leave us alone. I remember just being numb, unable to move, speak, nothing. I knew I could not tell because I felt no one would believe me, I maid such a mess with my life that I felt I would be slut shamed or something like that. I did not feel comfortable telling anyone until a friend came forward and told me she was raped and did not know what to do, and that brings us to now. I can't sleep or stop thinking about it, after I told it was like my big dark secret was out there and I had no control over it! Smells bring it back, food brings it back, so many elements bring back the pain and worry. I know I am not alone, but my husband and mother just don't understand.