I was taken advantage of about a week after my 19th birthday. I told the people that care about me and it hurt seeing them get hurt from this. So I did my best to stay strong for not just myself but everyone that cared for me. Apparently this was a horrible idea. My sister and best friend, the two people that were there that night before it happened thought it didn't bother me. My sister pulled me in the bathroom and asked me if I thought our mutual friend liked him about a month after the incident. I was confused by this. Could she like him, I said it over and over in my head. And I asked her why she would think that. And she responded with well because shes been hanging out with him a lot and has stopped hanging out with me pretty much. Well she had stopped hanging out with me a couple weeks after the incident happened. I loved this girl like my sister so it was a low blow when I heard that. It hurt knowing that it hurt people, but it hurt so much more knowing it didn't bother them. My sister has also hung out with him a few times since it happened. My sister was the first person I told when it happened. I can't stay mad at her though, the way I was raised you had a day to stay angry and then you wake up the next day and the slate has been wiped clean. So I've been sleeping a lot lately trying to avoid my problems and the world. I just don't know what do to anymore. My sister came with to the doctors when I got a pap done, and she was there for me when I went to get an std test. I don't know how to act around her anymore. She was the person I looked up to most in this world and I don't think she knows how much she hurt me.
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