Rape is such a betrayal, unfortunately victims are betrayed in so many ways other than the act of the rape itself. I could write about this for hours, but I will limit this the best I can.

Twenty- one years ago I was raped. I was 12 years old. I did not know the rapist. I did not tell anyone even though there were others that witnessed the rape...it was their evenings entertainment. Four months later I found out I was pregnant. I was notified immediately after having a positive pregnancy test by a social worker that I needed to find an adoptive family for my baby. Her exact words,"We would rather you give your child up willingly than us force it from you." She told me the courts would not favor me being a mother as I would have just turned 13 when he would have been born. I felt that I was forced into adoption and I was devastated by it.
I did go to court the rapist was sent to prison. However, the DA lied to my face and I did choose to plea-bargain due to the misinformation I was given by the DA. He was sentenced to a mandatory 10 years in prison, but only severed 3 in a minimum security where he was able to be out on work release. He got out months before the sex offender registry was enacted.
Shorty after having my baby, and giving him to a wonderful family, I was rescued by a family. I found this family as my sanctuary from abuse. I got on with my life the best I could. A few months after residing in their home two 12 year old girls joined the family. These girls were in foster care. They were my sisters for 18 months. The girls left our home and soon after were placed into the home of the parents of the man that raped me!!! The social worker knew what she did and despite our concerns she did not care. She said," everyone's family has a skeleton in their closet." I spent years horrified for the girls. I was literally sick with worry for them. The rapist was released from prison shortly after they were placed in his mother's home. The mother of the rapist and my "new" mom somehow became friends. I had to leave my "new" family (after living there 4 years) because I could not handle the betrayal. His mom managed to turn my new family against me in the matter of a few phone calls. DSS betrayed me, the justice system, my new family...the list goes on. The 2 sisters were eventually adopted by the rapist family.
Even though this happened years ago I am still outraged that DSS would allow foster kids with a history of sexual abuse to be placed into a home with exposure to a pedophile at the taxpayers dime. Today, I decided to complain to DSS about this. I should have bothered them about it over and over throughout the years, but I gave up. I was terrified and it brought up such incredible pain. I desperately hope they are no longer foster parents! It disgust me that they were ever allowed to be foster parents in the first place!

In all of the nightmares of my life, the worse I have experienced was the repeated, insane, betrayal of others who genuinely knew better. There is nothing worse than re-victimizing the victim over and over.