This weekend I went to my boyfriend's dad's house. He goes there every other weekend and it is quite some distance away and I don't get to see him at these times. Because it was fourth of july and neither of us had work his father was comming thursday night. I was able to go with him and this made me so happy. Think of it. A long weekend away from everything, all problems, just like a mini vacation. I wanted to get away, just three damn days away from problems, flashbacks, and the triggers of everyday life. Yeah didn't happen. I don't know what is wrong with me. I kept on having nightmares when I slept, flashbacks from god knows what triggers. My boyfriend was there for me 100% of the way and that was so nice but on saturday I had a chat with him. I told him that I was sorry because of all my issues and flashbacks and that I knew that is stressed him out. he reassured me that sometimes I do stress him out but he is still going to be there for me. It was sweet and it made me feel so good and he made me feel so safe. I just wish that it would end and I could enjoy a day of peace. What is wrong with me that I cannot have a day that I can enjoy flashback free. I'm so lost and sad and even though my boyfriend assures me it isn't going to happen I still feel that this is going to end our relationship because it is so stressfull. Does anyone have any advice?
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