I often feel alone too, even though I am surrounded by family and friends who love me.

I am in therapy and it helps, I do take pills to help me sleep and have been through sleep therapy to help rid myself of the nightmares.

I find writing does help me cope, so does talking with other people.

When I am going to sleep I try and put one good thought in my head and I keep that thought there.

The advice above is excellent. I can't stress enough how much writing and talking to people on here has helped me. Just knowing that you have such a strong support group makes the hard days a little better.

Just the thought of you being hurt by 5 people is extremely painful for me to think about, so I can only imagine how it must be to have actually lived it.

Yes, there's so much "help" out there, but all they tell you to do is "go from point a to point b," but NEVER how to get past the obstacles in the way.

It's so frustrating that there's something that is so common in this world (rape), yet no one knows how to fix the damage it leaves.

It infuriates me to even think of those men, five of them! I'm so glad you've made it 10 years and held together. Please, never give up. Others that have been through it need to see your strength, and likewise. Never feel like you're worth nothing, because you can inspire others. Not everyone makes it as far as you have.

Thanks guys, I do find that writing helps a lot. I've moved to England for a couple of years and I'm staying with my partners family, so I've been a bit scared to write things down in case something gets 'misplaced'. My therapist suggested that it can help to write things down and then burn them, as a way of helping to let go. I think I might give it a go. I've been here six months and not written anything! It's so good to know that I'm not alone, although it's horrible to see how many other people are in the same situation as me. The people who don't care about others do their best to ruin it for those of us that do.

And it really helps to hear some positive input from the men out there who actually try to understand the pain rape causes. I don't really know what part of me hurts or why or how to fix it, so I just end up feeling lost and confused. It's hard to explain how you feel to someone else when you don't know yourself.

I've had a similar experience, and i also struggle the most when it comes to going to sleep - i feel like a zombie having on average just a couple of hours every night! I'm afraid i can't really offer any advice as i don't even know what to do myself but i do know talking about it helps, so i'm here if you need to chat x

Being raped is one of the worste things that can happen to a woman. I was raped at just the tender age of 12 by my sister's bf....that was 25 years ago and it is vivid enough for me to remember it as if it happened yesterday. But you can survive this. Just talk to friends and family that love you, have some faith and live life to the fullest. And always remember....your never alone.