Do you ever get angry at the world? Just for being so insensitive. I can't count the number of times that I've heard someone say "Yeah, I raped that test," or "Yeah he got raped." Since when does that word mean you got beat or beat something else? It means someone TOOK something. And is in no way positive. I was watching tv tonight with my future mother in law & there was a scene showing a video a guy had made where he raped girls that were drugged. I tried so hard to watch it, and I finally gave up and looked away. Why would I want to see it? But the fact that I didn't watch it makes me feel like I'm not as strong as I need to be. In order to be a normal person in society I need to be numb to things like that, but I don't want to be numb. The fact that I was raped doesn't make me less of a person, I'm not damaged. I can stand here just like everyone else. The only difference is that I feel things others are insensitive to. I hurt when people use that word like it is nothing. But I guess its part of our training to go back to the real world, we need to become stronger than anyone ever felt possible. And its hard and it sucks, but we can do it. Because there's strength in numbers, and well, look around. We're strong.
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