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So here's my story. I was raped two years ago. I was very drunk but three guys decided to take advantage of that. As far as I know, they're diseaseless. But who knows? I had a pap and been examined by several docs because it just made me a hyperchondriac. My pap was normal and my regular doc said I was probably fine. Now this year its not. I have low grade sqaud cells. I'm scared to death. I'm going for a colopscopy(sp) on sept 24th. I thought that was a little far away but the nurse said since its very low grade its okay. They all tried to calm me down including my doctor. I went off the pill in march because my hubby and I would like to start trying for a child. My husband knew these guys. He grew up with them. I've been scared I had every disease in the book including HIV. I haven't been tested and I know I should and honestly I've had no symptoms of anything. Hubby said I could get tested if i wanted to but he just doesn't think its necessary. Maybe he just doesn't wanna know i don't know. Anyways i'm mostly scared I have some form of HPV that maybe my pap didn't detect a year ago and if so what if its cancer? If its cancer what if its HIV? If its all the above...oh god help me i don't want to die. I'm terrified and I've done nothing but cry, i'm eating very little, and I haven't slept well in like two days. The nurse said it could be just bacterial, not necessairly HPV. I know the net can be dangerous because I'm looking up every disease in the book I think. Deep down something tells me I'm going to be fine but...i just don't know. I know not everyone has std's or HIV. I know those guys may not have either/or. Please help!!