i feel like its happening again. Theres a man that comes in to work to see me. His name is Ron. He has grey hair...Im 21. He told me he has had a crush on me since i started there..ive beenn there since i was 14. he has came in everyday this last week..and talked to me when i was there... he makes me nervous. but im kind to him because i dont want to be rude. He asks all the time when i work next. I told him. he said he would be in to pick me up from work..so we can "go out"...he knows im in love..he knows i have a bf. I told him that "i dont think that would be fair to my bf."... he said we dont have to "date" just "get to know eachother" ...he isa very kind man...but it almost seems manipulative..i dont trust him. what man that age hits on a shy timid 21 yr old girl like me...its kinda weird. I dont want to overreact either...GOD I HATE MYSELF FOR SAYING THAT...if i would have stayed with my inital feelings when i was raped at 15 i would have seen what was coming...this man too seems to be taking me by surprise...if i went with him i wouldnt be surprised...what he may do to me. but hes my customer..i cant be rude? I just am not an aggressive person..i dont know how to balance things..where im taking care of myself too. hes tried hitting on other girls at work (they said) and he doesnt bother them...why am i such an easy target,,,what makes these boys/and this man think they can get me to do things i DONT want to do. im scared. what if hes there at my car when i get out of work tomorroW?
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