Rape Support Group
If you or someone you know has been the victim of rape, this is the place to find support and get advice. If you want, discuss your experience, share your feelings, and meet others going through a similar situation.
Tommorow marks the one year anniversary of the day i was raped... for the past few weeks ive had random flashbacks and nightmares. The days have been tough and my teachers have questioned me on why i havent "been myself"
I find that the truth in the matter is that i am disappointed in myself because i feel like i should be farther along in my recovery. I have only told 2 of my best friends. I cant get these thoughts out of my mind. That one year ago today i was still a virgin. That one year ago tommorow...i lost all innocence and became someone i dont like. Ever since last year i have lost even more value in my body...allowing any guy to do wut they want with my body, taking down my repuatation and self respect all at the same time. I have yet to tell my parents and i dont think i ever will. Ill always struggle to not blame my low self esteem. Countless guys call me hot and pretty and gorgeous all the time but it makes me lose even more respect.
This is long-winded but i needed to discuss my feelings and thoughts on tommorow...does anyone know how i can get through this week of nightmares and flashbacks and horrible thoughts in one piece?
I find that the truth in the matter is that i am disappointed in myself because i feel like i should be farther along in my recovery. I have only told 2 of my best friends. I cant get these thoughts out of my mind. That one year ago today i was still a virgin. That one year ago tommorow...i lost all innocence and became someone i dont like. Ever since last year i have lost even more value in my body...allowing any guy to do wut they want with my body, taking down my repuatation and self respect all at the same time. I have yet to tell my parents and i dont think i ever will. Ill always struggle to not blame my low self esteem. Countless guys call me hot and pretty and gorgeous all the time but it makes me lose even more respect.
This is long-winded but i needed to discuss my feelings and thoughts on tommorow...does anyone know how i can get through this week of nightmares and flashbacks and horrible thoughts in one piece?
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
I'm sooo sorry your hurting and tormented by the flashbacks and nightmares. People really don't understand what a job it does on you Physically, mentally and emotionally. Your words were almost exactly what I was thinking and couldn't say 5 1/2 mos. ago.
It's sad that there's not much you can do to change things but tomorrow on the anniversary......Do everything that makes you happy and stay busy all day long .....wear yourself out almost in staying busy cause otherwise you'll spend the whole day sad and depressed and unable to block the horrible memories that come up unwanted every other second throughout the day.
our story is similar in lots of ways and you can talk to me anytime you want. I"m here for you!
Try to feel better.. but get busy like you've never been before, and keep us posted.
Bear Hugs 4 U !!!!!
When I was in high school, I was raped as a virgin also. I never told anyone, except once, a teacher who I made promise not to tell. I know it was really hard for her, but she did not tell. She asked me over and over what was wrong with me. I was sleepwalking through life.
I am here many years later to tell you this. You need to talk about it, you need to process it. If you don't, the effects will be with you for a long time. What you are doing now with other boys is a common way to react. It means nothing about who you really are.
But you need to stop. What you are doing could get you hurt.
Find someone to tell, and start your healing process. It will never go away by itself. You don't want to be a middle aged woman still trying to get over your teenaged rape.