I have not posted my story because to think about it sickens me.While reading the posts by others I feel my blood pressure rise.I am 23 days sober and when I think about my rape and what others have faced the first thing I want to do is drink or get high.When I do drink etc..I get angry at any men around...I have physically attacked men who have come on to me while drunk/high. Including my boyfriend.I suppose I have not fully faced what happened to me and I don't know how without wanting to chemically alter my feelings.I am angry as hell!!!!How have any of you faced this? My attacker is in jail and his family wants me dead.Thanks for listening to my whining.
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