Hi, I'm new here,I am very distraught,in the past few days every moment is consumed by impending death...It may just be Anxiety,But I'm sincerely scared to death,I'm 45 Years old,for the most part average health,Never much went to the Doc for checkups or anything,went to get my Heart Checked out last week,The Doctor put me on BP Meds,It has just been the past month or two that I just began feeling down and crapppy,thought it might just be seasonal depression or a bug, my wife took my BP.It was through the roof ,like 160/120,that prompted making the Cardio Doc visit,He ordered standard blood testing which included a PSA because I had a minor complaint of pain in my groin,which pretty much began a few days prior...Well it came back at 65!!!!Isn't this a bit ridiculous,is it a mistake,C'mon I'm 45, Never had any symptoms of Prostate trouble,What is going on,He makes me an Appt with a Urologist,I get the Digital Exam,and understand, for someone that does not regularly visit Doctors, that was quite an unwelcome surprise....Anyhow,he says my Prostate is Hard and Lumpy,,,,,Oh my God! What does this mean!????So with his CRUDE bedside manner,he explains very bluntly,Because of my PSA and the Exam this could very possibly be PC....PC is treatable,unless it has metasticized,So I ask,what does that mean...He explains that the Spread would make it untreatable.....Okay....Hey,what do you mean....I'm going to die????Pretty much yes, I said like 15 years...NO....10 years??? No...2-4 at most....Now jesus...C'mon,I have 2 little girls and an ill wife......A 7 Year old and a 13 year old who need me very badly....Am I getting a head of myself...Or is this it....He ordered a Biopsy for this coming Tuesday, Will the Results of this tell me Yes.....You are Expired.....I can't go right now,Not until my girls are old enough........I mean all of a sudden...NO SYMPTOMS Ever and a PSA of 65...Then the digital Bad News.....Is the Biopsy going to seal the Deal....I can't sleep, My anxiety level is through the roof.....Any body have any ideas...I mean 65....What does that mean....IS IT AN ERROR????????????? Any feedback would be greatly appreciated...Sincerely,Jim
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