I just go my 90 days clean on December 16th. I had been using prior to this for 12 years.Everyday use for the past 7 years. I realize how unmanageable my life became.I remind myself of that,it's just i miss the zing of it. If i ignore all the negative the actual part of being high i enjoy and miss.I don't want to go back to using but the compulsion to do so is so strong at times i fear the day i get the"fuck its" and ignore the negative. I'm told it gets easier i'm just wondering when. It's hard ignoring this monkey all the time. If anybody has some experience,strength and hope i could use it.
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