
Prescription and Synthetic Drug Abuse Support Group
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I am taking like 20mg a pop about every 4-6 hours. Yes i am abusing it, do not know if a full addiction has set in but I know i am probably on my way. I was using it for pain, i still am. Of course I loved the high i got from it, until i stopped getting that high....who wouldn't?
My question is with what i am taking now is it going to be hard to get off of it as someone who takes far more?
Is there life after an addiction? Can you ever feel happy again or do these prescription drugs kill that? I heard somewhere that you will be depressed the rest of your life once you had an addiction and even when you kicked it and are clean for years you will be depressed because the drug shuts off your "happy switch"? I hope these people are just giving me shit. I was always depressed anyway without responding to any medicine but i still hold out hope a new treatment will come along. At the doses I am taking now how far gone am I? I am too chicken to take that extra 10mg to feel high again. I fear overdose....or am I taking a toxic dose right now? What a mess! I kicked the alcohol so easy......never crave it, so i do not know what the hell is going on. If i had success with the alcohol do u think i will have success trying to get myself off this shit or at least back to the point where it is for pain only? I mean the 10mg the docs gave me was never strong enough, 'it will take the bite off" they said. Well i took it upon myself to take an extra because i wanted the pain GONE. What are withdrawal symptoms?
My question is with what i am taking now is it going to be hard to get off of it as someone who takes far more?
Is there life after an addiction? Can you ever feel happy again or do these prescription drugs kill that? I heard somewhere that you will be depressed the rest of your life once you had an addiction and even when you kicked it and are clean for years you will be depressed because the drug shuts off your "happy switch"? I hope these people are just giving me shit. I was always depressed anyway without responding to any medicine but i still hold out hope a new treatment will come along. At the doses I am taking now how far gone am I? I am too chicken to take that extra 10mg to feel high again. I fear overdose....or am I taking a toxic dose right now? What a mess! I kicked the alcohol so easy......never crave it, so i do not know what the hell is going on. If i had success with the alcohol do u think i will have success trying to get myself off this shit or at least back to the point where it is for pain only? I mean the 10mg the docs gave me was never strong enough, 'it will take the bite off" they said. Well i took it upon myself to take an extra because i wanted the pain GONE. What are withdrawal symptoms?
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I took probably 10X that amount per day for 3 years. Of course I built up to that amount...
I've been clean for a year and a half and life is so much better without drugs.
Man, reading your story was so much like mine. I have had a history of addiction and alcoholism. Was clean one time for 9 years, decided to try more insanity and went out for a year. That didn't work...was clean maybe for 3 years and decided I could CONTROL my drinking and drug use. Let me tell you it is far worse living in insanity and feeling life is hopeless and useless. I am now clean again, and grateful beyond belief. Monday I go to make an amends to my pain clinic doctor. I have been to 4 meetings this week. I am GLAD that there are programs out there like NA and AA. I can also tell you you will find much joy to life and living if you seek help there. Work some steps, get a sponsor, got to a meeting (meetings!!!!)
I can now look myself in the mirror and actually like what I see.
You are loved. You are worthy. Life will definitely improve in a way you can't even imagine if you surrender. I can't believe how sick I got in my head. I now realize that the inner pain I was trying to squash was only growing tenfold by my usage of drugs and alcohol.
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If you look in the phone book you can find listings for NA or AA helpline's. They will be there for you. We're all sisters and brothers just trying to help each other and help those who want to abstain from all drugs in order to recover.
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Tinewen
Thanks for taking the time to reply. What if the depression was soooo bad before i started taking them? I mean that is why. I have not responded to any anti-depressants at all.....i have tried about 30 kinds. I went to counseling for 17 years and nothing has been able to pull me out of the shit. While the pills (Vicodin) are active the depression does not feel so bad, to me, any lift out of the depths of hell is better than nothing. So when i quit the pills do i just go back to the depression that was there to start with, because the depression is what drove me to this? I am confused. I just want the depression to go away. I am afraid i am heading down a road that will take me from bad to worse.....i know i am.
As far as addiction, you're nowhere near big addict levels. You just liked the high, that's all. Now you miss it. But the fact that you haven't taken that extra 10mg shows you aren't abusing it. Continue your dosage and you'll be fine. There's no reason to stop now if you need it for pain.
BTW, to let you know, addicts tend to take 60mg or more every couple of hours. You are nowhere near that, so don't worry.