this is pathetic but im 17 ok?? im "on drugs" i love pills but wish i didnt. i take them alot. dont worry about where i get them not important. but i used to be alot worse and now that ive slowed down i think its time to quit. i dont really want to quit but i know that i need to and there is a tiny bit of me that wants to quit pills. i havent had and in about five days. i feel like shit. my stomach hurts i dont want to eat.if i do eat i feel sick like throwing up so i just avoid eating. im shaky cant focus. tired oh so tired but i cant sleep no matter how hard i try. my legs and lower back and fingers hurt so bad that i want to cry. my eyes they are so heavy but i cant sleep. and im not even going to discuss my mental well being. its horrible. what is this how long is thins going to be like this. i dont think i can take it much longer like this. i know that some pills will make it go away
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