My hubby's b-day came and went. I got him a b-day card and took him to dinner. No gift. I didn't get him one because I'm pissed. Last week, I found a load of pills in his jacket; he asked me to get his cell phone and behold! Pills, pills, pills!!! "oh those must be old" was the story I got. Here I am believing he's gettin off this crap; it was like God was trying to tell me something; he's not gonna quit! I showed them to him with tears in my eyes but I didn't argue. He said "flush them" and I did. OK so that was that. Well, not really. I talked to him about it and he told me they were old, he forgot they were there, etc...RIGHT! This is getting to be too much for me. I hurt his feelings by not getting him a gift; but WTF! My feelings have been hurting for 2 years!!!!!!!!! He's been giving me the silent treatment since then until I broke the ice today. I told him that since he's not putting this pill popping craze out of his life, and showing me that our relationship is #1 priority, I purposely didn't get him a gift until now; yeah...I caved....hold on, he had the nerve to tell me that he didn't want it and that his feelings were hurt...yeah, I felt bad and went out and got him something...my freakin' love for him did this. "I'm tired of you bringing up this pill issue...blah,blah,blah" was his response today. I'm losing myself to the passive, agressive, i.e. bitchy woman, and I don't like it. Then to make matters worse, he told me he took pills three days ago......somebody shoot me.....I'm I nuts to feel like the end is near? Does he want me to leave him? First time ever since we have been together that he said "take the gift back". I almost lost it but held it together. I don't know what else to say or do. And sex...forget it....May is around the corner....we had sex once in April...am I crazy or is this relationship heading out the door? He's still taking pills, I ain't gettin' laid, and he's mad at me for "ruining his b-day"!!!!! I can't make this stuff up!!!! ADVICE PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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