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Forever Known as the "Ice Queen"

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It seems like that is what my life has become, no matter what good or bad I did in my past, or what I am doing now, that is all people remember, my time of addiction to Crystal Meth.
I am new here and did not know where to start, but a new friend gave me the courage (thanks!)I am a 34 year old , married, mother of a 11 year old son, had a job as a web site designer and have been through 2 back surgeries and on pain medication for 6 years that was controlling the pain good enough, but my struggles were not only that. After dealing with my husband's addictions to drugs and prison terms, I eventually gave in to my curiosity and horror at this thing called Meth and gave it a try.
After my doc found out, he dropped me, put it in my records and tells everyone who asks that I am just an addict.Period.
I have a new doc who has just recently given me lortabs for the chronic daily pain, but wants me to go ahead with fusion surgery for my back, thinking I can then have no use for pain meds. Even if I have this surgery, I will still have 2 herniated disc, spinal stenosis and degenerative disc disease.
This is horrible, I made the decision to quit meth on my own and have done so, but my life is screwed up now and I can't see the right path to take.
Ice has done it's damage to me and continues to do so, even though I am not using, my body still is under the ravages of this drug. My mind too, because now I can't get the help I need and don't know which way to turn.
If anyone made it all the way through this, thank you for bearing with me. It does feel good to let it out anyway.
I am new here and did not know where to start, but a new friend gave me the courage (thanks!)I am a 34 year old , married, mother of a 11 year old son, had a job as a web site designer and have been through 2 back surgeries and on pain medication for 6 years that was controlling the pain good enough, but my struggles were not only that. After dealing with my husband's addictions to drugs and prison terms, I eventually gave in to my curiosity and horror at this thing called Meth and gave it a try.
After my doc found out, he dropped me, put it in my records and tells everyone who asks that I am just an addict.Period.
I have a new doc who has just recently given me lortabs for the chronic daily pain, but wants me to go ahead with fusion surgery for my back, thinking I can then have no use for pain meds. Even if I have this surgery, I will still have 2 herniated disc, spinal stenosis and degenerative disc disease.
This is horrible, I made the decision to quit meth on my own and have done so, but my life is screwed up now and I can't see the right path to take.
Ice has done it's damage to me and continues to do so, even though I am not using, my body still is under the ravages of this drug. My mind too, because now I can't get the help I need and don't know which way to turn.
If anyone made it all the way through this, thank you for bearing with me. It does feel good to let it out anyway.

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How long have you been clean? Because from what I am starting to understand is that even after you get through the physical withdrawals there are alot of mental withdrawals, like feeling worthless, no motivation, stuff like that. You might google P.A.W.S- post Accute Withdrawal Symptom-it was pretty informative to me to see what my husband was going through even though he was "clean". If your doc is telling people your buisness that's a HIPAA violation and you can report him to the government for that! Good luck and don't give up! If you had the surgery would it relieve any of your pain??

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I have been clean for 9 months. The symptoms you descibe though as far as mental withdrawals seem to be what I am feeling. There is no guarantee that with the surgery I would be pain free. Not even a guarantee that the fusion would take. It is a lot of surgery and pain to deal with on a chance. That and the fact that I hate the thought of being helpless and dependant on my family to take care of me after yet another surgery. It is a scary thought.
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