It seems like that is what my life has become, no matter what good or bad I did in my past, or what I am doing now, that is all people remember, my time of addiction to Crystal Meth.

I am new here and did not know where to start, but a new friend gave me the courage (thanks!)I am a 34 year old , married, mother of a 11 year old son, had a job as a web site designer and have been through 2 back surgeries and on pain medication for 6 years that was controlling the pain good enough, but my struggles were not only that. After dealing with my husband's addictions to drugs and prison terms, I eventually gave in to my curiosity and horror at this thing called Meth and gave it a try.

After my doc found out, he dropped me, put it in my records and tells everyone who asks that I am just an addict.Period.

I have a new doc who has just recently given me lortabs for the chronic daily pain, but wants me to go ahead with fusion surgery for my back, thinking I can then have no use for pain meds. Even if I have this surgery, I will still have 2 herniated disc, spinal stenosis and degenerative disc disease.

This is horrible, I made the decision to quit meth on my own and have done so, but my life is screwed up now and I can't see the right path to take.

Ice has done it's damage to me and continues to do so, even though I am not using, my body still is under the ravages of this drug. My mind too, because now I can't get the help I need and don't know which way to turn.

If anyone made it all the way through this, thank you for bearing with me. It does feel good to let it out anyway.