I have always had a high tolerance to pain medications. I've never had an addictive personality. I get 30 vicodin a month. Supposed to take 1 at bedtime for back pain, instead when I'm feeling down about life, like I have been I'll take 5-6 a night just to get the euphoric feeling. Sometimes I wake up in the morning and my throat hurts and my voice cracks. Sometimes I throw up when I do this sometimes not. Basically my 30 are gone in the span of a week. But when I don't have anymore I don't freak out until the next time I get them or try to get them early. If I take too many and they make me feel bad I will wait a few days before a take more. I don't think I'm addicted but I can't tell? I only take them at night because I like the feeling I get when I'm trying to fall asleep. It's like I'm there but I'm not. Am I crazy?
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