I abused vicodin, norco and especially oxycontin for 4 years and finally made the decision to get my life back and get clean. I am on subutex, and have progressed very well, down to a quarter a day (2 mg). I feel absolutely amazing. I know i have my life back, my friends back, my family back, and am in control of my money finaly. I havnt had any bad cravings at all, just thoughts of "what if i was high right now?" i laugh it off knowing that life is done, and I never even come close to giving in. my worst days are when i think of how i f*cked up my life for the past 4 years. My question is how long will this positivity last for? am i just up on a cloud because its only been 15 days? will i start feeling mad, bad, or lonely? i want to stay this postive and feel this good forever.... how do i keep on this track?
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