I am 25 weeks pregnant with my first child. Baylee Ann. I was engaged to her father and he was providing 100% financial support. We just got a new car for the baby and me. The pregnancy was planned. However, shortly after we did get pregnant, he started becoming violent and more and more possessive and controlling. This has been going on since probably around October. Unfortunately, things just progressively got worse. We just recently moved i with my parents due to financial troubles, and mostly just because I had grown more and more afraid to be alone with him. I was afraid for myself and for my daughter. Late Saturday night, we were arguing and he went to the store. When he got home I was laying in bed. He came in yelling and throwing things and jumped on the bed. He was hovering over me, about two inches from my face. I was afraid and I told him that I would scream if he tried to hurt me. So he put his hand over my mouth and started slamming my head down into the bed. I was so terrified that I don't even remember everything that happened. I do remember trying to puch him off and asking him to stop. I told him he was hurting me and all he could say was, "yeah, I bet that does hurt". By the time he let me go I was vomitting and had to run to the bathroom. I was crying and choking and vomitting and I couldn't breathe. I actually heard a blood vessel pop in my forehead. And then he felt so bad that he was trying to help me clean up. I told him I didn't want his help. When I got myself and the bathroom cleaned up, I went back into the bedroom and he was sitting on the floor in front of the bedroom door so that I couldn't leave the room or wake my parents. Rather than risk my or Baylee's safety any further I just laid down in bed and cried. He was talking to me but I wasn't listening. I don't know how long it was, I just remember eventually he said he was going in the living room to watch tv. And that's where he stayed until sometime after I fell asleep. The mext day I waited until he went to work and then I told my parents everything. I told them about every incident since the beginning. My mother took me to the ER and the baby and I are both ok. I filed a police report, and he was picked up from his job not even two hours later. Monday moorning I went to the courts to get a temporary injunction against domestic violence, and we have a court date on the 12th. So far he hasn't bothered me aside from his dad calling me and telling me he wants to work things out and he's very sorry for everything. But he always says he's sorry and still continues to put his hands on me. If he were truly sorry he would stop. His dad just wants me to drop the charges bacause he was charged with two felonies: 2nd degree assault on a pregnant female and 3rd degree false imprisonment. Now I have all these finances to work out, which my mother is looking for another job to take over my bills. I lost my car, so we all have to share one car (me, my parents, my teenage sister..), and they all have jobs and school. And I'm dealing with depression and feel embarassed and ashamed. Not to mention failing at this relationship and leaving Baylee fatherless. I'm just terrified of what he might do to her. I can't take the chance. And now I have to deal with facing him in court. I know that we're safe now, but I'm still so scared and worried about our future. i just don't know what to be most stressed about first!
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