I everyone is probaby going to hate me after reading this but after what i read what people wrote for will weed hurt my baby post i decided that i should share a story with all of you this is a true story that happen to me I had a ruff childhood which alot of people have so it honestly not a good excuse but it was mine when i was a teen keep in mine i only twenty anyway i party alot i didnt really have a home since i was 14 (my moms boyfriend molested me and my mother kicked me out!!!) I felt utterly alone so i decided to get into the wonderful world of drugs and drinking etc. i was a wild child i still went to school sometimes i have done everything to pot to meth pill popping over the counter drugs between 16 and 17 i decided to calm down with lots of help from my boyfriend at the time who was a marine he was 24 at the time anyway he got ship out to iran i ended up movong in with his friend holding down a job and staying clean then i just felt so alone with out him around like i did after my family abandon me so of course i went into my old ways i started snorting coke smoking weed meth doing srooms anytimes i could get my hands on during this i lost my job and my roommates ended up getting another room mate a guy named kerry which we ened up sharing a room. One day i came home from a party i did coke pot and srooms all at that party then i went home to crash and instead ended up downing a whole bottle of jager next morning i woke up next to my roommate naked I have no remember of what happen after i started drinking but all i do know is that kerry knew i had a boyfriend and he didn't drink cause he was on probation. I was in tears crying cause i never cheated on my boyfriend no matter how srewed up i was. but i never was so srew up that the whole night was a black out either anyways back to the story he weared to me nothing happened me dumb enough to believe him went on my normal route a couple weeks later i was getting sick and i started serious no believeing my roommate cause anytime i came home trashed he did whatever in his power to get me to drink and i would major trust issues after a couple of days being sick (which at this time i quit doing drug just in case) i went to plan parenthood and got a test came back negitive to my relieve so i went back to doing drugs about 4 weeks later i did srooms and had the worst trip in my life it felt like thier was something inside of me choking and i was hurting it the next day i got a phone call from plan parenthood and they said that some how some pregnancy test got switch and that they wanted to retest all the waman that were in thier that day I swear i felt my heart stopped so i hopped on the bus and rush there the nurse was going on how sad it was cause they told a couple who were trying to have a baby for other 3 years they were pregnant but when they went in for thier first prenatal visit they found out they werent they called planned parenthood and told them about the mistake looking for some kind of explaintion. this of course my me sad turn out i was the pregnant one I cryed and told the nurse everything i done and she yell actually yelled at me telling me how horrible i was and etc. i decided i should get an abortion i made an apointment for the following day that night i crying upset realizeing what a terrible person i was then it hit me that if i go though with this then in a couple of weeks i be right back to where i was and then i started thinking of that poor family who got their hope up for what was actually my baby i never did go to planned parenthood for that appointmet i also never told kerry that he was the father either i ended up giving birth to a healthy baby boy he will be 2 and a half on jan 5 he is so smart he been talking since he was nine month he cause sing his abc tell you how old he is count to 10 spell his name out long loves it when people read to him everywhere we go poeple thinks he at least 3 half years old he is so smart for his age and since the day i found out about him i havent touch a drug since i even quit smoking cigarettes i still drink but ever as to the point that i use too. anyway i writing this so that people do not judge people on what they did but what they have learn ande gain if it want for my son i probaby would have died from an overdosed cause everything i did i did in mass amounts my boyfriend found out i was pregnant and dumped me but it didnt matter cause i never have to worry about being alone again cause no matter what i always have my little boy he is my angel!!!
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