On Christmas Eve I found out offcially from the clinic that I am indeed expecting.YAY!! So excited. Well I did all the things that I'm supposed to before my first OB appiontment. On my frist appointment they did the ultrasound to give me a more specific due date. Well they souldn't find the baby. So every 48 hrs I went and did the blood tests to check my HCG levels to make sure they were doubleing like they are supposed to. They are not. So the next week I did another ultrasound. The doctor told me that The numbers were increasing which meant that the placenta could still be alive but the baby is not. I felt like I wanted to break down right there because the previous visit the woman told me that she wanted to schedule a DNC to remove the baby since she didn't believe it to be vialble. WELL>>> On this last ultrasound the doctor was just about to give up looking for the baby and I seen a heart beat!!!!! She seen it at the same time as me and although she couldn't focus in on it to hear it she counted each beat and thinks it's normal. WOW!!! My baby is in there and I'll be doing another ultrasound next week to check on things and see if we can't measure it this time. She said it's the smallest baby she's ever seen....wonder what that means?? She said she thinks it may have been twins but one died and that's why my numbers are off. Now I'm worried...I watch alot of DHC and see the specials on vanishing twins and Im worried about my baby being fused with other "parts".
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