I have been really sad lately more then i never been.i have no enengy i my kids irrtate the hell out of me i cry all the time i have to force myself to eat anything and me and my prefect boyfriend arnt so prefect anymore we fight over everything we cant get along i felt so crappy the last couple of weeks which is actually why i join this site was mainly for help but i been to embarassed to talk about it. but i cannot seem to find anything that can cheer me up not even my kids which has alway been my pick up i cant stand being around them the taught of having a baby at times just makes me cry because i sruggling taking care of the two i have me being depressed is actually a very scary thing because after i haved my first son i od on a bunch of pills and end up in the crazyhouse for a week. i couldn't even tell you why i did it i dont even remember doing it honestly. i have reason now to be unhappy me and my boyfriend cant afford to live by ourself we are living in his parent (their very sweet and nice) family room you move from a hugh 2 bedroom house into a familyroom with a 1 yr old and a 2 two year old and your boyfriend their no room to breath. me and my boyfriend fight alot over the stupids thing plus he works in a differert town and his car crap out so we sold it to the junk year and the next day my car died on him on his way home from work and no one can figure out what causeing it not to mention i just put over 1000 dollars into it.my mom is always putting me down and pointing out my errors oh and i lost all money the other day i dont have any idea how i did that either plus the same day i broke my cell phone which is the only phone i have. i been so forgetful clumsy bitchy irritable lazy i just dont know what to do
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