Hey my name is jenessa, this might be a kindove long story but its nice to get it out there and talk to people who can relate.

Well, i lived in Vegas 2 years ago and fell in love with a Andrew (a guy i worked with) we were together for like 8 months. In that time we had unprotected sex like always but we didn't pull out, kindove in the moment type of thing.. well the next day we went to get the plan b. Ended up not working ( i guess he had that super sperm) well, we talked about what we wanted to do and we thought abortion was the best thing. We paid and made the appointment. When we were in the waiting room waiting to be called i was mixed with all dif emotions and he wasn't being supportive at all. he changed his mind at the last second and left it in my hands. you can just imagine how i felt when i was already thinking all dif things at once. but we stuck to the plan and i got it done. i was 8 weeks along and i was sad about it after but not to the point where i let it take over me like other girls. i knew my decision was a good one. i still think about what life would be like if i didn't do it.... But then again i wouldn't be where i am today. I later found out that Andrew was just a complete pot head douche bag and i was better off. i moved out of Vegas and back to Arizona.

Through my former best friends boyfriend i met his brother Jeremy. We Jumped into everything super fast, i moved in with him and within 2 months we were trying for a kid, everything was perfect and easy. After 2 months of trying we finally got pregnant with a baby boy. we are completely happy and so excited to have him in our lives. But i still think about how selfish i was to give this all the love but i could;nt give it to the one i selfishly aborted. i know that timing is important but i see 16 yr olds doing it all the time... i could have done it too. But then i wouldn't have Gavin coming into my life either... i dunno. its a mixture of emotions. Ive had a simple pregnancy so far, only issues are stress about work and car situation. but i have an amazing boyfriend who has a good job and a great head on his shoulders. He kisses my belly all the time and talks about how he cant wait to be a dad. I lucked out completely when i met him and wouldn't have it any other way. Sorry if i bored anyone with this story, i guess its just nice to type it all out even if no one reads it. i don't have any girlfriends who live in the same town as me, so this is all i got... I moved into this town only knowing him and didn't really go and hang out with co-workers or anything... i quit my job so now i just stay at home all day alone until he comes home, so yes... i am very bored. So if anyone wants to chitty chat im here : )