Today I went for my first appointment with my midwife and she did an ultrasound and only saw a black dot. She wasn't able to zoom in because the ultrasound machine was acting up and said all it means is its to early to see anything and that I am probably only four weeks along. She decided to send me for hcg blood work today and then again in 48 hours. The midwife told me not to worry about the blood work that it is just to date how far along I am. It still makes me nervous because in my previous two pregnancies I never had to go for blood work but I also never got into the doctor until I was at least 7 weeks along. I keep trying to convince myself that worrying won't due me any good and that everything is fine because they definitely know I'm pregnant and a sac is forming. I go back in two weeks and I am hoping to be able to see my baby for the first time. My pregnancy with Colvin was labeled high risk but they told me this one is even a higher risk because of his stillbirth which means I will see a lot more of my midwife. The one thing I learned with Colvin was that one week everything can be fine and a few days later everything can be wrong which is a big reason why I am afraid. Deep down inside I am going to keep telling myself that everything is going to be perfect with my rainbow baby.
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