I don't know where to start. I know others are kind and mean well and have their own situations to deal with. Here's mine, I have bipolar disorder along with post truamic stress disorder and rejection issues. I don't make friends easily because I have trust issues but try to be there for others in their needs, as a Christian should do. However today my cup is not running over and I feel all my health issues are not taken seriously enough. I have asthma and have had problems lately with breathing, my heart has a condition-cardiomyopathy and I have weight and diabetes, Ibs and so maybe its just all catching up with me. Or my self esteem is plummeted. I can pray for others and it seems it helps them, which for this I rejoice. For myself I just can't do it, as it seems for some reason it isn't working. It isn't GOD, its me. So I would ask if anyone made it this far with reading this if they could pray for me. I feel like I have burden down too many people at my church and they just can't take the moods anymore and for some reason they are getting more in number and serverity. I didn't choose this illness, its my cross to bear, tonight tho' it is a heavy one. I would greatly appreciate prayers. My profile that I just posted tells where I'm at also. I think I just need to stay away for a bit, perhaps. Thank you to anyone who will pray for me. Bless you.
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