Okay so I was invited to this site by a really good friend of mine. I have a lot of faith issues and have a lot of anger. I lost a baby when I was 19 to chromosome abnormality she lived seven days and I was angry then but was able to rebound. Then my sister in law lost her baby to a "fluke" as the genetics counselor called it he lived exactly 24 hours. Then my other sister in law lost her baby as a result of her kidney disease and the inability to carry the baby to term, he lived 2 hours. After those I felt discouraged, I felt why does god do this? Why does he give us children only to take them away? I do have two healthy boys and I am thankful for them, but wait it's not over, last year I had two miscarraiges, one at 7 weeks and another at 5 weeks. Then finally I got pregnant and YEAH it looks like it may go well, just a little bleeding but the baby is hanging on!! I have an amnio at 16 weeks!! Praise the lord he is healthy!!(I prayed everyday!!!) that weekend I got the flu, went to the ER and the baby is fine they send me home, my temp goes up and I pray some more please get me and my baby thru this lord....I go into the doctor two days later, the baby is dead.....Why but I prayed everyday all the time, why would he do this to me? What have I done so wrong, not to mention all my other problems, bills, no money, I have to move and yet everyone else around me is pregnant and having babies, drug addicts having babies just to throw them away, children dying from abuse,and here I am a good caring mother and I can't be blessed with just one more. Like I said I am thankful for the two that I have but I would like one more. So you can see my issue maybe not, my friend has always done well with telling me that god is real, I would really like to believe so......
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