I have PTSD due to a heart condition and because I have been "shocked" 15 times by my ICD implant. Just like the paddels you see on TV in and hospital shows is what happens to me. Only I get it internally and I am fully awake. It hurts worse than you can imagin and I have nightmares over it for weeks after an episode. I was shocked five times a few weeks ago and now I am having trouble doing normal everyday stuff. Afraid to walk up stairs for fear of getting shocked. I feel lightheaded and I am struck with fear that is overwhelming. I am not normally like this. I am a fighter, but I can't seem to "get-up" this time.
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