so i had a great day in london with m. Great sites, great shopping and great food. Very xmassy. Me and m got on so great too, had alot of laughing together. When i was struggling with my pains he really checked in frequently if i was ok which i thought was nice of him. Even offered to carry me. ( i think he would regret it if id said actually yes please lol)
so yay for such a great day but there are the fatigues, the massive pains, the annoying migraines. Ive just got home took 4.5 hours from london to home and all i want to do is get in a ball and cry. Oh wait here come the tears kinda. Im so tired, i feel genuinly really upset even though ive had a fantastic day. Great now i am crying. I think i should take my meds and go bed early.its been a very long and active day. Ok need stop crying now.
They have been contolling my thoughts and mind all day and they wont stop :( I dont know what to do they arent usually THIS bad :(
The dark cloud of depression is looming on the horizon. I learned today i will have to wear a big old ugly leg brace everyday now. It is being tightened weekly to try and steaighten my leg and it is painful today.My pain and furthering disability seems to be causing old pains to come up again reguarding my ptsd. I drove by my old employers and started having flashbacks. I felt the anger...