I'm not seeing my therapist right now because I'm working. I've missed two sessions already this month. I'm very anxious. She works at a college down the street from where I live and that's where I've been meeting her. But School finishes Friday so her schedule is changing and so I'm hoping I can get into an evening appointment with her somehow after work I just have to figure out transportation. I don't have a car and have to use Taps which is the public transportation here in town and they only run Monday through Friday from 6 a.m. to 5:30 p.m. and you have to call 48 hours in advance to get a reservation to get a ride. It's really really hard and it's a pain in the butt but it's all I have right now and so far it's working.
My goal by working this job is to get dentures and a car. I get health insurance after 30 days so it's medical dental and vision. And that is on top of my Medicare and Medicaid insurance that I already have. So I'm hoping that the Dentures won't be as expensive and I can get a car rather quickly. I live in subsidized housing Sherman Housing Authority. They are going to increase my rent but because I'm still on disability it's going to be 30% of my income so it's going to Skyrocket for me so I don't know how I'm going to balance it all yet. Money and budgeting is very hard for me. I've never been good at it and I'm worried that I'm not going to do things right when I get more income. I've been living on around $700 a month for over 4 years so having this much more money I just I don't know what I'm going to do. I'll lose my foodstamps and possibly Medicaid, I'm not too sure on that one. So all my bills are going to be increasing. And I have about 10 days left to get my graduate school application turned in. I'm stalling because of the six essays I have to write. I should probably get that done this weekend. But I'd really like to see how this job goes and see if I can keep the job and get into it a routine and then apply for school because I know I'll be able to handle it.
I'm working at a call center for an energy company that's based out of the Northeast. Our group is in charge of Western Massachusetts. It's an inbound call center so we take calls and deal with payments and delinquent accounts and things like that. If I do everything correctly and have perfect attendance I'll get a bonus every month.
I'm exhausted. Sorry this is so long. I don't have anyone to talk to right now
My anxiety is bad. I'm popping my jaw in and out and popping my knuckles all day long. These are nervous habits. Idk how to not do these habits?
We're in a training room and all we've been doing is reading packets of information and playing ice breaker games. We should be getting our badges and employee id soon, Thursday at the latest. So work has been boring and very long. Hopefully soon we'll be able to get on the phones and get some real training.
Any tips on how I can deal with my nervous habits while working? I'm trying to remember to breathe deeply but it's hard. There is a test at the end of training. It's "open book" so we can look at our notes during the test. I don't want to mess this job up. I'm exhausted and have been having trouble sleeping.
Guess that's about it. Thx y'all.
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