I have yet to mention to my therapist my difficulty returning to work after being physically sick for so long. Is there anyone who has trouble even getting up to go to work due to enormous triggers there? How do you over come and get back to the love of the job? I have the best skill I could imagine and used to approach it with great enthusiasm. Since I am a Registered Veterinary Technician I run into people who look like my trigger, act like my trigger, not to mention the security who are cops and send me into daymares that affect me as I am educating clients regarding their pets. The flashbacks have completely debilitated me from having the passion I once had for my job. Now I have my work begging me to come back asap and I cannot find the will to go (choosing to avoid and change back to being a receptionist)- due to triggers. I always have recovering pets I can cuddle with and I still love surgery and dentals (which I specialize in) but that world sends me into an anxiety stomachache then bleeding ulcers once again. I don't want to allow my ex to affect my work passion but I am really having a hard time dealing with the "Fake it till ya make it" having to appear to clients like I have no problems and am in a great mood all the time(That's what my job requires of me).
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