It is possible that the past is coming back because you are in a better place to deal with it and heal from it. Have you been to counseling to work through the nightmares? Make sure that your husband has as much information as possible about battered woman's syndrome and PTSD. This will allow him to help you. Right now he probably feels totally helpless. If he is willing, it would be good for him to meet with your counselor as well to address your specific symptoms and how to work through the nightmares and flashbacks when they happen. Knowledge is power, and you are in a good and safe place now, so it is a good time for you to face those old demons and get rid of them.

Revpatty is right about the past coming up because you are ow in a place you can deal with it & also to definitely go to trauma therapy. I think if yo do tah you will get to the bottom of it and be able to enjoy your present state of happiness. The same thing happens to me and now I even go to couples council which is helping.

Take Care

I don't know what it is, but it seems like when we are feeling the most comforted and safest, the crap comes up from the past. They say we are stronger now to deal with it. Whatever the reason, it is still hard to deal with, especially if you don't have good verbal skills. When I couldn't talk to people at first I tried poetry and simple art. I would just sit down with colored pencils or crayons and draw. I found it to be so helpful and soothing I might add. Try to find other ways to comfort yourself besides talking. That might be to much pressure right now. Then when you are ready to talk the words will come. Thank you for your post.