Alonely is my word for feeling alone and lonely at the same time.
My two BFFs and I were a trio.
Till this last year.
One moved back home and the otehr never left. Now they're a duo and since I'm not there... I'm out.
It's eating me up. I've tried really hard to keep in touch, etc., but my life isn't travel-friendly right now (and if it was, would it be smart?.
I don't text b/c where I live has iffy cell phone coverage. We only have coverage if we're outside or if we're in a certain room, and since that's where Hubby has his home office, and a second cell phone is $$$, well, I don't text. They don't e-mail. Phoning seems to be passe. "Expensive". But... Friends are worth it, aren't they? Going out of your way? A little? I mean, I was planning to go to Germany and Mexico to see friends ------ (insert pandemic rant here) ------ and still plan on it. So within the US isn't a big deal. I mean, c'mon. It's probably as far from where i live to Seattle as it is to Mexico City (just checked: It is almost the same, about 3K miles).
So.... as I head into the third month of the worst timeo f year for my PTSD... just had to put it out there. Feeling alonely. And it sucks. B/c my body isnt getting better as I age, and that's unlikely to change. I don't care how fit I try to be, damaged spine nerves are damaged spine nerves, and I don't have the money to buy that medical miracle.
Thank you for letting me rant. Peace to us all.
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